First off I just have to say that I went and bought a small notebook to write down my ideas in, 2 small notebooks actually, but one was for  japanese studies, and I have yet to use either. I think it is probably because I’m so busy that i don’t have the time to think of ideas. Just kidding, it is because I have no social life, so when I’m in front of my computer I don’t really see the point of going out of my way and taking out a notebook and writing slower and uglier than I will by just getting it down in a openoffice document.

So I was trying half assedly to write a story of publishable quality, I think I wrote for 2 hours, and then suddenly I developed a new interest. An interest that continued to consume the struggling remains of my social life, and devoured any desire I had to write the short story and get it published. I “rediscovered” youtube. The whole “youtube community” thing. With the comedians and the directors etc. And suddenly I felt like I had to make videos of my own, mainly because I suffer from delusions such as believing I’m charming and charismatic and of course hilarious. I will continue writing, but perhaps I will start writing short movie manuscripts instead? At least I want to try that out. Let’s see  how it goes. I always have ideas so that’s not really a problem, maybe it’s because I have a big head.

To this day I’m never really sure whether people are laughing at me or with me. Probably with me, most of the time anyway. And when they actually do laugh at me, I probably messed up so I will be laughing at myself, and then they’re laughing with me so I win?

What a weird post. I feel like deleting it but I won’t.

Take care, and keep on doing whatever you do as a creative outlet. If you can draw then I hate you. And don’t give me that “anyone can learn” bs, I couldn’t draw a proper line with my life on the line. Even though if my life was on the line my hands would probably shake out of nervousness, yeah… let’s just pretend that made sense somehow. I’ve seen other people say stuff like that as if it makes sense! Anyway I don’t really hate you if you can draw, just jealous.

Sincerely(hoping this blog post isn’t the worst post ever),

Ragnar